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deborah//16///: e zan gne gno na wó

i say sorry a lot.

 —  forth

passing through the corridor,
light playing like laughter off the
stop by the door, glimpse your
reflection in the mirror. hair
curled from the steam eyes
wide, sleepy.
i can feel your breath through
the thick wood, can tell you
are smiling at yourself,
slow like syrup, like your parts
drawing away from me
out of me ///
like your chest to my back,
hearts beating into each other.

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4 . 22   sometimes i want to save a moment like a piece of gold    or keep it with me like a seashell in my pocket    to show someone later    but then it's just like    this is a second    everything is a second    it's not going to be here forever i can't spend the whole time trying to save it when i can't even see it    i need to learn to let things go 

cathedrals, spines to the
sky, the skin of your back gray,
smooth to the touch.
minarets, golden in the sun,
your fingertips pink to the
west, warm from the dying sky.
stained glass windows or your
eyes /// shiny in the light ///
teeth clicking together, the
sound of heels on stone on wood
on the aisle between pews,
fingers skipping around the
seats of your ribs. mouth open,
laugh like a hymn.

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chest pains like a conversion
disorder, count to ten before
speaking. four in, glance up,
note the way he looks;
five, ask him how everything
was - seven, wait for him to
speak. eight - the burn moves
just below the ribs, spreads like
wildfire, smoke like california
summers. nine; he smiles,
teeth bright like embers of the
fire like lights on firefighters’
helmets like at the end of the

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Junot Díaz & Peter Sagal: Immigrants, Masculinity, Nerds, & Art

(via awriterandnothingelse)

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repeat after me: 
1. our immigrant families are not just ‘homophobic’ they are also ‘colonized.’
2. our parents have histories, genders, and sexualities, too.
3. they are just as broken as we are (but we have the words — i mean the english — to say it)
4. the diaspora responds to racism with heteronormativity
5. trauma seeps through generations

(via seulmates)

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